|by Hamid Bahrami|
But then, on Sunday night, I made a commitment to run on Monday morning with the exception of pouring rain. Well, I had a crap night's sleep, didn't end up falling asleep til past midnight and yes, it was raining but I hardly stirred to turn off the alarm and continued sleeping without even registering the rain. I felt a bit disappointed when I did wake up but hey, I had had a crappy sleep and it was raining! So I went about my normal morning routine, logged on to the forum at work and low and behold, the Commitment task was there to read.
I pondered it, didn't quite get it. Yeah, of course I commit to it... derr! The money is gone from my credit card, I've done the pre-season tasks haven't I?
I then opened up my twitter page and saw that I had committed to something and failed to follow through.
The world is full of good intentions and they get you bloody nowhere! Good intentions are nothing, nada, zip. I have plenty of them. I intend to do a lot of things that are wonderful and grand and never ever happen. I procrastinate, I make excuses, I blame others, I blame myself and then wallow in self pity.
And finally it clicked. I'm not just saying I am going to do something. I am not just intending to do something. I am COMMITTING to doing something.
That means: no excuses, no procrastinating, no blaming others.
I am not saying, I will wake up at 6am every day and run for exactly 5km. That is a plan, but not what I am committing to.
I am committing to doing what I need to to get to my goal - lose 10kg, to run 5k in under 30mins, to run 10k without stopping, and to learn to swim 100m without stopping. Plans change, shit happens, but come hell or highwater, I WILL get it done. It won't be perfect, it won't be pretty, it may even well and truely suck! But it will get done. I might not be able to get it done in the 12 weeks - but I will get it done.
That is what commitment means.
So at 4pm, I threw on my jogging clothes and grabbed my iPhone and even though I couldn't find my earplugs, I ran. I went for the run that I commited to. It wasn't perfect, it was way past the time frame I had allowed, but I did it.
My word means something.
I mean something.