Monday, September 27, 2010
Week 2 (Day 8) Competition
So I read how someone has burnt 2000 or 3000 calories in a session and I immediately think 'okay, well that has to be over a few hours!' which it probably is, but why can't my first thought be 'wow that is awesome'. Maybe it is because I can't 'see' the person and feel that emotional connection, but in all honesty, its because I feel inadequate. It shatters my own sense of success when I hear of others succeeding in much better style then myself. I haven't managed numbers anywhere near that.
I tell myself different things to ease my feeling of inadequacy - 'slow and steady wins the race' 'they must be bigger and less fit then me so they burn more calories' 'they mustn't have work or study to get done' or even 'maybe they are fiddling the numbers or doing it over a few hours or something!' Anything to face the reality that they are just doing more then I am because they have chosen it and I haven't.
Why didn't I choose it? I only have 8kg of fat to lose (add in some muscle in there though so it will probably only be 6kg all up) so I don't need to pull huge numbers. I don't want to burn myself out by pushing too hard. I don't want to set myself up to fail by expecting too much of myself when I already have a lot of other commitments. And I dont' even know if it is possible for me, as I am already quite fit, to burn that many calories in an hour or two.
I should be, and will be, happy with the numbers I pull for myself. I am the only one on my journey, the only one in my body, living my life. It is up to me to choose what is right for me at this time in my life and I am not 'comparable' to anyone else. So stop comparing and just do what you need to do.