Do I need to confess?
Well, I need to be accountable to myself and the purpose of the blog is to share my journey and that journey includes the internal battles that go on. So now I shall open up my life and share some horrid things I did last night!!
My neice came to visit last night! I haven't seen her in two or three years and she now has a little girl who is two. Dave decided to get pizza take-out (he misunderstood me saying 'pizza night!') which I figured was okay as I hadn't had snacks so the 380cals for a biggest loser pizza was bareable. All went fine... I had nibbled at a few chocolate shavings but nothing constituting anything of substance - more a tasting. I was happy with my pizza.. I ate it and it was so delicious! And then I got the 'keep eating' urge that I always get but this time.. there was pizza in front of me and I indulged. I had a peice (albeit a small one) of meatlovers pizza, and then followed it with two peices of garlic bread. I decided against the spirte figuring I had better not push the limits too far! I reckon I ate an extra 500 calories on top of the 380cals I had allowed for dinner. Now, I had had special K for breakfast with low fat milk, half a serve of yogurt with blueberries for morning tea, and an egg and lettuce sandwich for lunch, two cuppa teas, and a hot chocolate (the 60cal type). So all up I didn't blow out too bad, probably more a 'call it even' day, but I have lost the opportunity to lose more weight!
I got cocky - I know I hit 58.0kg on the scales that morning and lo and behold I 'deserve' a treat, or 'it doesn't matter, I know I've lost some'.
On a more positive note, I did my 'quick' 20min run last night and got my 1km time down to 6:39 as the average. Need to shave a bit more off though... I need to practice running at 6mins per kilometer if I am going to get a 5k in 30mins!
two x cuppa tea
going for some special K now... (late breakfast!)