Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Week 2 (Day 10) Distractions
Today is the day I must choose.
I can see myself veering off the path I am on and I need to acknowledge that and get back on that path before I get sucked in the downward spiral.
It started with the chocolate the other day, and then the pizza.
And then yesterday I was fine until dinner again - double servings for me, PLUS a red mars bar. AND I didnt' do my exercise.
Now, I am stressed. Really stressed. I am tired.. so tired, but am having trouble sleeping. My Honours is taking me into some weird hours- I was up till 11pm last night, had to be at the lab from 7.30am to 12noon this morning. I need to go back at 10.30pm tonight for an hour, and then again tomorrow from 9am to noon. But then that is it until next week. But I have about 40pages of my Thesis to write up in the next few weeks.
I feel so overwelmed with what I have to do. I am concerned because I've lost faith in my supervisor in how he is instructing me to do my research, especially with the statistics and some of the writing aspects as well. I need to go over his head and talk to someone now, before it is too late, and that is scary! I am so late in getting me results, the other two students are way ahead in their progress.. I am worried, scared and stressed. I don't know if I can do this.
The house is a mess, the kids are not being looked after properly as I am relying on my partner to do most things (who would have thought I would have to explain to him that the kids really do need to brush their teeth each night!), and I just feel like everything is falling down around me - including me.
I will go for my run tonight - I damn well need the stress relief.
I may stray off the path but I will acknowledge it when I do, and I will move back onto my path!